An old mountain preacher I knew in my childhood used the expression, "one eye and half a brain". Of course that is likely politically incorrect today, but we never missed his point. Nor did we know anyone with "one eye and half a brain". His was a metaphor of indicating that even one who had the challenge of having only half sight and half a brain could get certain points.
If I were to transfer that to us today, I would say that any such person who is a Baptist is aware of the controversy that has plagued our people all of my ministry. I have heard older men talk about the days prior to. I do not know those days. I wish I did.
I began my seminary days and continued for many years firmly planted in the conservative resurgence. I do not use the term "takeover". I was there. It was a resurgence, it was conservative, and it was necessary. Has everything been done properly? From what my friends tell me who are on the "inside" of the SBC structure, "no way". Did some things get out of control? Apparently. Are things where they need to be? No. Do leaders recognize that and are they willing to make necessary adjustments? Yes and hopefully.
In 1992, I was invited to the staff of the Evangelism Division of the BGCT. I can't tell you how that felt. I had no idea nor did I seek the position. But to be in such place was more than I ever thought this E. Tennessee boy would ever see. In my last semester as an intern at FBC Dallas, Dr. C. Wade Freeman, former Evangelism Director of the BGCT became the interns "supervisor". As a vocational evangelist and later President of that organization in Texas, I became friends with the much loved Evangelism Director Carlos McLeod and was among those asked to read a Scripture passage at his memorial service. One of his daughters hugged me and said some things that are precious to me to this day. And, it was a privilege to serve on the staff of Dr. Bailey Stone.
As time moved on and things began to shift in Texas Baptist life, the controversy escalated and our offices became more and more stressful. I confess that I did not always handle that properly. I have never been the silent type. But where I sensed I needed to repair relationships, I did.
There was a change of Executive Directors. My experience with people inside the BGCT had been positive. Those I knew were Bible-believing, God-fearing people seeking to use their gifts to extend the Kingdom of God. In those first few years, the new Exec seemed to be a man of commitment to prayer. We worked together on a call to prayer; a time when almost the entire border of Texas was prayer-walked; and when Tom Elliff was President of the SBC and called for a day of prayer at each of the seminaries, our Exec. Dir. called and said, "I want us to participate in this." Texas is not a small state. And the chapel at Southwestern Seminary does not seat as many as could be expected. The Exec had an idea - let us ask every association office in the state to open and let people go to their local association office or drive to Ft. Worth. It was their choice, but we would pray. I was asked to contact Tom Elliff to see if this would be considered "cooperative" and received his full support.
A few years ago the BGCT "restructured"...again. Powers from outside the organization were at work. I won't go there. No need. What is done is done and may God bless those who now serve and lead.
Not only have things changed denominationally, but they have changed in churches. Most of the preaching, including mine, is somewhere close to conversational. Much preaching is informational, 'how to', and a lot of it is a kind of 'feel good' psychology. Now to be certain, sometimes we need to feel good. I have surely heard enough 'feel bad' preaching.
But the point is this. My soul yearns to hear convictional preaching. I mean the kind that convicts ME. I am not looking for an emotional experience. I am wired a bit different than some. I remember when it all connected for me in salvation. Although I had made an earlier "profession of faith", it was years later in a second event when the mind, the emotion, and the will all came together at one point of trusting commitment to the person of Jesus. And my response to preaching is much the same way. If you just speak to my emotions, or my mind, or try to manipulate my will - I have a huge ability to analyze, dismiss, and move on. But if there is a connection with mind, emotion, and will, I am moved.
And I have been moved. I listened to some of the preaching from the SBC annual meeting now taking place (June 10-11). Of all that I heard, Dr. David Dockery nailed it for me. You can go here and click on "live streaming video" and search for various speakers in the archives section.
I don't know what the future holds either personally or denominationally. Right now I am in what I call "denominational purgatory". That is what happens when one's ministry has been in both camps. I think I followed the leadership of the Lord and tried to serve His people by serving Him. But not everyone sees it that way, so it is often as my friend once warned me, "Ted, it's like wearing confederate shirt and union pants. You get shot at from both sides."
But I know this. As best as I know how to hear the voice of the Lord and discern his steps for me, I know the next is to finish this dissertation. I have no idea if it will be good enough to pass. The more I read and the more I write, the more I am confronted with how insignificant I am. But I progress. And if in the good grace of God and my professors, mine will be a contribution to the work.
I have no desire to live a life of animosity. I won't die on every mountain nor arm wrestle you for position. If the Lord doesn't grant it, you can have it.
Moderates are moderates. I don't agree with them on many issues and especially in their seeming fear of anyone who knows anyone in leadership of the SBC. And the same is true with Fundamentalists. Let folk be who they are and love them. Deal with issues and respect the personalities involved. Where there is conflict with Scripture, go with Scripture. But I will not hate. The last time I checked, the Spirit seeks to shape us into the image of Christ, not the image of _____________. And in my anecdotal experience, that is where most Baptists are, including a lot of employees in the BGCT and SBC.
David Dockery is right. Find his message and it will be 15 minutes well spent.